Sunday, February 26, 2006

Getting Better!

Everyone here seems to be getting better. Connor is sleeping again.We had a pretty relaxed weekend. We didnt do any running because of the sick-o's. So J.W and me had lots of snuggle time. Which was great! Sometimes I am so overwhelmed with my feelings for J.W that I cant bare the thought of ANY time away from him. He went and got grub for everybody earlier and in the 45 minutes that he was gone I missed him horribly. Being so in love is wonderful.
We are planning a get together at our house this weekend. Invited our friends. Now here is to hoping we can get sitters for the kids. Drew will either be going with his dad or to the neighbors, as for Connor and Shaina we havent asked anyone yet. A break from responsibilities for a night would be very appriciated. Its been a long time since we have had one of those nights. Last Halloween I believe it was. Shaina wants to go to my moms but things are still bad
with my Uncle Pete so that will have to wait. She has asked several times if she could go to J.W's folks but I would feel ackward asking them to watch her. Shaina really took a liking to them it makes me very happy. Shaina talks about them all the time.
I am gonna ramble a little bit more here. My friend Deb called me last week. She needed a ear or maybe even a shoulder to cry on. She was suppossed to call me back the next morning and I didnt hear from her I tried calling her but there was no answer. I finally got ahold of her tonight and she was crying. She is so sad. The guy she has loved for years and years turned out to be a dick. They have been having problems for awhile now and she dont know what to do. A couple months ago he decided to be a real man and beat the shit out of her. He calls her fat all the time says ooh look at her isnt she hot while pointing some girly out. He has been verbally bashing her for months now and her heart is broken. She asked me tonight what should she do because she still loves him very much and she doesnt want to be alone. Hmm... I said Deb I know you love him but nobody deserves to be treated like he is treating you. If I were you I would have left when he hit you. You need to get out. I told her of course it will hurt but in time her heart will heal. Living a life time with a man who repeated hurts you shouldnt be a option. People dont hit people they love!
No more rambling. Later.
I love you John!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Down with the sickness

Everyone here is sick, but me. I am sure mine is coming. First Drew and Shaina got sick (bad bad colds). Then J.W got it and I am pretty sure Connor is getting it. He just started to cough. It sucks when a baby gets sick, you just dont know what to do to help. You can give them medicine and your love but they cant tell you whats bothering them the most. J.W was in bed the first day for about 23 hrs straight. He was up off and on today. Drew and Shaina stayed home from school yesterday but had to go back today. I hope everyone gets better soon!

Not to be selfish, but I was really looking forward to a kid-free weekend. Doesnt look like its gonna happen now that they are all sick. Mommy needs a break! I think now and then, regardless to who you are, you need a break away from the kiddies. Connor doesnt like to take naps anymore and if he does they are only like 20 minutes long if that. So its been hard to get anything done. The house is beginning to look like shit. I will get it cleaned up some time tomorrow, unless I get super sick like everyone else here. If I get sick I hope everyone remembers what I have done for them and returns the niceness.

Thats all for tonight.
I love you John!!

Monday, February 20, 2006

No longer lost for words

Feeling pretty shitty I am. Not having any time with J.W is really getting to me. Am I unhappy? I guess in a sense, yes I am. Today I thought I was gonna get some time with him in the morning but it turns out I was wrong. Evidently snuggling with me isnt whats needed for after work "unwind time". All I can say to that is, HUH. I think snuggling with my sweetie after getting off work would be wonderful. Also if you will be going to bed right after "unwind time" think about how you spend it. So anyhow I took the kids and went to my parents house today and stopped at the grocery store as well, thinking that J.W would be good and rested when we got back and I would get to spend some time with him before work. It seems he didnt rest good at all. The phone kept him up. The stupid assholes who are buying his house dont know how to make their own phone calls for furnace parts so he told them he would help. Lots of furnace phone calls caused him to not get sound sleep. When 8p.m. came around I went up to see if he was ready to get up and he wasnt so I went back downstairs and watched House. That was over at 9p.m and time to get him up. Didnt leave much time for us before he had to go to work. I do understand and realize that he needs to get sleep but we need time together as well.

Change of subject. We purchased a punching bag this weekend for J.W to beat on. I said "I dont think I will get much use out of it because it dont seem all that fun". Maybe its not so much the fun but the lack of interest. Really I dont think it would keep my interest for more than 2 or 3 punches unless I am pissed off. And if I am spending alot of time punching it then I am getting pissed off too much and thats not good. Drew will probably get some use out of it. He has a bit of a additude problem sometimes and maybe he can take some of his anger out on it. I guess what I am saying is, if you only beat the hell out of the punching bag when you are pissed off and you are spending alot of time at it then something is wrong somewhere. But if you are doing it for the workout then have at it.

Off to bed soon.

I love you John!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Lost for words

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Our First Valentines Day

We had a nice layed back Valentines Day. We chilled most of the day. J.W took a nap and Connor and me went to the grocery store. We got back from the store put everything away. Before long Connor took a nap and I got a shower. When Shaina got home from school she showed me her Valentines that she got at school. I use to love the parties at school when I was a kid. J.W got up and got a shower and soon we were off to supper. J.W took us all to dinner at Bonanza. It was nice. The kids were well behaved and Connor joined us in some mashed potatoes. I also had a Valentines Day poem written for me by my sweetie. Thank you sweetie!

Late last week, my baby girl fell and hurt her wrist at school. It wasnt swollen or anything so I figured it was fine, just sore. I was wrong. I ended up takig her to the hospital late Friday night and sure enough her wrist was broke. My poor girl. We had to wait till Monday to get her into a Dr. for a cast. When we get to the Dr.'s he says "wow she really did it good", turns out when she fell she crushed the bones in her wrist together. My poor girl. The Dr. says it will heal up just fine though so we are very happy for that. Shaina got a pretty pink cast. Everyone is signing it. Oh yea it was her right wrist that got broken and she just happens to be right-handed so guess who gets to write for her. Yep, thats me, I dont mind though.

Time to go check out ebay and see how our items are doing. Hopefully we got some bids. After checking ebay its soon time for bed. Goodnight to all.

I love you John!!
Happy Valentines Day Baby!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

SIS-A-FIED

Sisafied is what someone I know would call it. I cant help it. I always miss J.W when he isnt here but sometimes when he goes to leave for work its ten times worse. I wrap my arms around him and dont want to let go. He does this thing sometimes where he will say "Oh I am sick I cant go to work", well then I get my hopes up thinking that I am gonna get to snuggle with my baby all night and then when its time for work off he goes. SIGH! We have seemed to get a better sleeping pattern down. We get lots more time together this way. J.W gets home, eats breakfast, games a little(sometimes), then about 10 or 11 a.m he lays down then I get him up about 6 or 7 p.m for supper and us time. It seems to working out pretty good.

The kids have become friends with the neighbor kids which is all fine and well but they hang here all the time. I told them tonight they have to take turns, here one night then their house the next night. I dont want 2 extra kids every night. The older ones game so they are quiet, but Shaina's little friend is crazy hyper. I dont think every night is gonna work for me. Connor he has made friends with his feet. He talks to them and plays with them all the time. He has found a meanness in him that I dont like so much. He looks at ya real evilly than growls and attacks your face. He better grow out of that shit real soon! No meanies! No way!

We are staying home this weekend.(WOOP!) No running for us we are having our folks over on Sunday for supper, now that I have an oven I can cook like a normal person. I know we are gonna have some kind of chicken but I am not sure how I am gonna prepare it yet. It will be great having everybody over for a change. Well its bed time for me.

I love you John. With all of myself!